My wife, Ann and I are caretakers to five horses and four dogs. As we were not able to have children, they have taken their place and our bond with them is unusually strong. Instead of being resentful that we were not able to have children, we opened our hearts and home to a different kind of relationship that has been very rewarding for us.
The law of attraction says that whatever we focus on will come into our lives. It is a non-judgmental process that keeps a balance between our energy and the energy of the universe. If we had chosen to focus on what we did not have, we would not now enjoy the unconditional love of our animals.
Our bed is quite crowded each night as we make room for a Yellow Lab named Apollo, a Siberian Husky named Odin (Odie) and two Miniature Schnauzers named Alexander (Xander) and Zoe. Ann and I instinctually toss and turn throughout the night without disturbing the warm bodies attached to us at different angles. In the morning when I wake, I am greeted by a joyful pack of excited energy, anxious to start a new adventure. There is no time to worry about challenges I may have during the day. I am covered with gentle, wet kisses and wagging tails that tell me whatever the day brings, we will experience it together. As I stroke them all wishing I had two more hands in order to show them all equal attention, I tell them I love them and say a simple prayer to the Lord: “Thank you.” I am keenly aware that whatever my past mistakes or misjudgments, whatever struggles I have had in my life, have all led me to where I am in this moment and I simply take the time to soak up this feeling and thus put in my order to the universe to bring me more of this energy during my day.
I have also had my lengthy conversations with the Lord. I have questioned why bad things have happened, why I have suffered and fallen prey to doubt. However, I feel by far, the most impactful prayers are of gratitude. When I struggle, I have learned to simply give my troubles to the Lord. I am not meant to understand everything. When I feel frustration our doubt, I try to focus on the fact that these are teaching moments and that keeping an open mind to the positive lessons to come, makes room for them to arrive.
With all of the distractions of our busy lives, the multitasking that drains our energy and leaves us feeling we are not accomplishing anything, it is most important that we focus our attention on the present. We cannot change the past and worrying about what we fear may happen in the future only attracts negative energy that does not serve our true spirits. We have all heard that all we can control is the present, yet our active minds can work against our best interests. When we notice our minds racing with thoughts that leave us frustrated and confused, it helps to bring ourselves back into the moment. Simply focusing on our breathing or noticing the physical feelings we are experiencing in our bodies without judging or trying to somehow change our reality, releases our overactive mind and brings us into the present. Just becoming aware of our physical selves reboots our active brains and gives them a break. If we are experiencing angry thoughts, we may feel tightness in our chest. Fearful thoughts may show themselves as stiffness in our stomach or tingling in the bottoms of our feet, as though our instinct is to run away from our thoughts. Our nature is to think our way through everything, ignoring that our bodies are often providing us with much clearer evidence of our state of well being, if we can learn to pay attention. Upon reflecting on the physical feelings in our bodies, these feelings slip away and return us to more focused and clear thoughts.
It is just as important to pay attention to our physical bodies when we are experiencing joy, excitement or love. We may feel lightness in our arms or softness in our chest or belly. Learning to become aware and experience these moments more deeply is like teaching ourselves the release of pressure we use to school our horses with. This is the state at which we are most at peace with ourselves and most joyful. Becoming aware and enjoying this feeling connects us with the positive energy in the universe and attracts more of it into our lives. Remember, the universe does not judge, it simply works to stay in balance and brings whatever we focus on into our lives. The Lord created a universe that brings us everything we need in life, but we must be aware and open to receive it.
The greatest joy and love in my life comes from being with Ann. She came into my life at a time I was lost, confused and frustrated. Years before my wife had left me for another man and I wasted much time feeling sorry for myself and being angry. It was only when I learned to accept what life was trying to teach me and open my mind to the possibility that something greater was meant for me, that Ann came into my life. She was patient with me as I continued to work through the issues that led to a failed marriage and let the past go. As I learned to focus on the positive presence in my life, I began to once again feel comfortable being my true self. Ann’s unconditional love was the seed that grew into a beautiful blossom of connection to positive energy in all aspects of my life.
While I enjoy the fancy title of Publisher, it is Ann who is the cornerstone of what our success has been built on. She tugged at me when I was pessimistic about taking on another business that in my mind was becoming a dying art in the digital age. It was she that saw my education in Mass Communications and Creative Writing that would flourish in a passionate pursuit of personal expression. She became the taskmaster and allowed me to focus on the creative side of the business, developing and nurturing our vision as a publication. She compiled an impeccable staff. Each of them carries the weight of ten people and they all share our passion for our joint venture. Without Ann in my life, I never would have experienced the joy and personal growth I have experienced. As I feel the tingling in my chest and lightness of my fingers dancing across the keyboard, I would like to pause for a moment and enjoy this inspiring energy and simply say to the Lord and to Ann, our family of animals, our families themselves and our wonderful friends:
Thank you, I love you.